Wednesday, August 6, 2025

Poker night

I’ve played in a low stakes poker game, almost every Wednesday night, for years.

It’s always been a really fun night, win or lose.

Great group of guys.

It always represented an excellent diversion in the middle of most hectic work weeks.

A countdown in days to playing again was always omnipresent on my mind.

My wife would note how I seemed to be in a good mood most Wednesday mornings getting ready for work.

There are so many wonderful diversions now that occasionally it’s a Wednesday afternoon and I remember, “oh yeah, I’ve got poker tonight!”

I can’t say that’s been a bad thing whatsoever!

Looking fresh

A former colleague: It’s great to see you. You look fresh, well rested.

Me: Thanks.

I am well rested.

I haven’t had my sleep interrupted due to being on call through the night for over three months now.

Being on call through the night is part and parcel with being a physician.

While some nights were relatively quiet, others completely sucked.

Working through the night, for the nursing staff, was not a joy for them, I know.

I always did self-talk, when called, reminding myself of the same so as to be respectful in responding, especially when called for concerns that really weren’t urgent or emergent.

Also, some of the least experienced nurses worked through the night as it often represented an initial opportunity for employment in the healthcare system where I practiced.

However, they went home after the night shift to rest.

I navigated through the next day of work often feeling like crap due to sleep deprivation.

I can honestly say I don’t miss call, that’s for sure.

I had 40 years of intermittently being on call through the night and for entire weekends.

I almost can’t remember just how terrible I felt, and must have looked, for a good portion of my adult life.

Tuesday, August 5, 2025

Another tension-free day

I re-read some retirement cards.

One amusing message noted, “good-bye tension, hello pension.” 😂.

Today was another tension-free day.

Got up at 7am.

My wife headed off to work soon after.

Reviewed domestic and global news while having some breakfast.

Emptied dishwasher.

Took out the garbage.

Adjusted hot tub chemicals.

Put Vinegar down AC condensation drains and changed AC filters.

Walked the dogs.

Hit balls for an hour at TopGolf.

Walked through Academy sports but didn’t buy anything.

Got gas.

Grabbed drive-thru Chick-fil-A for lunch.

Went to the gym.

Walked through the PGA store but didn’t see anything I needed.

Got home.

Took a 30-minute Power Nap.

Watched a few instructional golf tutorial videos.

Read.

Walked the dogs again.

Feed the dogs.

Did some yard work.

…and now it’s just past 5 and my wife will be home soon.

She sometimes asks what I did during the day.

To be honest, some days have been so tension-free that I often only remember a few highlights.

But I’m ready today, but only if she asks.

Her work days, as were mine, would never have this entries title.

Friday, August 1, 2025

Probably no, at least for today

My wife: I heard the Geriatric fellowship program is going to expand and move to a new location. Would you be interested in precepting the geriatric fellows occasionally?

Me: I don’t know. I’ll give it some thought.

It’s a new day…I’m still giving it some thought.

I’m leaning toward “no,” but, who knows, I may have different thoughts tomorrow.

So, I’ll just keep these thoughts to myself for now unless you are reading this brief blog entry…then you’ll know as well! 😏.

Tuesday, July 29, 2025

Caring, competent pawns

“Knights are motivated by virtue. They want to make the world a better place. Knaves are selfish. They desire to extract as much as possible for themselves. Pawns are passive. They follow external rules and regulations…”-Sandeep Jauhar (in his book Doctored) reviewing a concept put forth by Julian Le Grand.

He also reviews a 2010 essay from JAMA by Drs. Jain and Cassel in which these concepts were applied to medicine: “In the halcyon days of the mid 20th century, physicians were viewed as knights. After Medicare was created…doctors’ salaries actually increased…But as doctors profited, they were no longer seen as knights. They were increasingly perceived as knaves bilking the system…”

“A congressional investigation found that in 1974, surgeons performed 2.4 million unnecessary operations costing nearly $4 billion…”

“If doctors were mismanaging their patients’ care, someone else would have to manage that care for them. Beginning in 1970, health maintenance organizations were championed to promote a new kind of health care delivery built around price controls and fixed payments.”

Price controls and fixed payments meant external rules and regulations. 

I finished medical school until 1985. 

Most patients I cared for were members of a healthcare organization with rules and regulations, formularies, the need for pre-approvals, case managers, etc..

I was a pawn?

Unfortunately, surveys conclude that the knighthood to knavery to pawn transition adversely affected physicians satisfaction with their career choice.

Recent surveys also report that 60-70% of physicians would not recommend a medical profession to their children or family members.

This is unfortunate.

Despite the challenges, just always do your best to advocate for and help your patients navigate through our complex, expensive, and often frustrating, healthcare system and do whatever necessary to cognitively reframe at the end of a chaotic day.

I frequently re-read quotes from a 1996 article by George S. Poehlman MD during my career:

“Medicine allows us  to participate in the lives of others and it’s a privilege granted to few…remain humbled by this honor.”

“You will become an amateur anthropologist on whom people’s stories are bestowed-those of the privileged and poor, the old, wise and weak, the young, irreverent, and the strong. This is what makes men and women of medicine wise.”

Hopefully, physicians will stop discouraging younger generations from choosing a medical career!

We will all need caring, competent pawns down the road.

Sunday, July 27, 2025

Still adding justification, for some reason

Just back from being the plus-1 for my wife, who was attending a work conference at a hotel in southwest Florida.

I met and interacted with many of her colleagues, or their plus-1’s, some of whom, after conversing for a while, would invariably ask, “what line of work are you in?”

I can honestly say it was the first time I felt completely comfortable in saying, “I’m a Physician, but I also just recently retired.”

However, even though, without fail, all would say,”Congratulations!,” I still felt as if I needed to add additional caveats such as:

“Yep, after a 40-year medical career.”

“I couldn’t believe how many of my classmates had also already retired when I saw them at my 40-year medical school reunion in April.”

“But I’m board-certified until 2029, so we’ll see…”

Et cetera.

But, I’ve made steady progress when answering the question, so I don’t anticipate it will be too much longer until just say “thank you” after being congratulated.

Wednesday, July 23, 2025

1st Habitat build

Spent part of this past Saturday volunteering for a Habitat build.

I spent the entire time placing furring strips into cinder blocks with a hammer and masonry nails.

I was given feedback from the foreman that I was doing an excellent job.

I wanted to impress, especially since I had respectfully opted out of all suggested ladder and roof assignments.

We quit for the day after 4 hours.

I’ll volunteer again soon.

Just one note to self: don’t forget work gloves the next time to increase the time to the reappearance of finger blisters.

My wimpy hands will appreciate the same.

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