Absolution

Today is the 6th Friday since I retired.

I've been tempted to call or drop by my old office to see how everything is going but haven't.

My wife feels as if enough time hasn't past and I had to agree.

I told the new medical director and my former program manager to call me for any questions or needs, but they haven't reached out.

I gave 4 months notice but there was a fair amount going on when I left that makes me ponder how things are going, along with a twinge of guilt.

Recently, a physician gave just two weeks notice before abruptly transferring, another physician was threatening to resign due to some administrative changes in his assigned office location, an advanced practice provider was continuing to be a source of, almost, daily drama, there were more requests than usual for emergency leaves due to medical issues and family needs, and many work site changes were being implemented due to edicts from the new presidential administration.

However, on further reflection, none of the above was grossly out of the norm during my long tenure as the medical director.

I was just always there to help adapt and problem solve.

I know my replacement will do an excellent job but I still wish that everything had been more settled prior to my departure.

But, having now documented these thoughts, I'm granting myself absolution from any guilt.

My former medical team, however, remains in my thoughts (almost) daily.